Secret Inherited Voice

Not necessarily a secret … Those closest to me know I can sing well because I sing in the car and shower but I sang in front of a crowd for the first time in the 29 years I’ve been singing. Yup stage fright but it used to be more than that. My best memories with my now sperm donor father are he and I singing our hearts out  until bedtime. I felt he was proud of me. It felt good. Approval. Last night was the first time I’ve felt proud like that again but not because of the applause but because now I stand on my own. I can sing alone now. You see all these years I kept my voice to myself because I saw it as something special my dad and I shared. Sacred almost. Now I think it’s silly because it felt really good to get it out last night. I’m so glad I went for it.

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