Is the best way to describe my state of being at this very moment. Listening to sia feeling sad and confused.. Wondering what the fuck is wrong with me. I have support. A guy who loves me and my kids, best friend ex husband who supports me, family who loves me through it all, pharmaceuticals, therapy, group… What is it going to take to understand this shit?!
I can’t wait for Dbt I hate this. This is going to kill me Wednesday can’t come fast enough.
I haven’t mentioned this but being a therapist or some sort of counselor is my lifelong dream. I started young at the tender age of 8?(not sure exactly but more or less) I have memories of having long talks pretend therapy sessions with my favorite cousin (whom is now living my dream only he’s helping children which I can’t even begin to imagine… I admire him). We sat in his dad’s classic car for privacy and would talk for what I remember was forever and vent. He sparked my interest in psychology. If only I knew that in my early 20s when I decided to fuck off my financial aid.
I’ll get there someday. I don’t know how but for now focus on my own shit so I can help people get past theirs someday.