Bleeding out but it’s cool I’m invisible.

My heart is broken. 
I printed every picture I have of us…. Fuck ton. I don’t want to let go. I don’t know what it is but my gut tells me letting go and attempting to move on is a mistake. I don’t know why I can’t seem to wrap my head around the idea of starting over. Introduce yet another man into my kids lives. Only to be misunderstood still I’m sure as I am the majority of the time. I don’t want anyone else. 

I fucked up. I don’t know how to cope. The pain alone is overwhelming. Working and functioning just as any mother should but I cry myself to sleep every night. It’s been a month. I feel like it’s been years. I’m in so much pain. I wish he would come home  

 

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