October was a month filled with sorrow and pain. Unbeknownst to me, that sorrow and pain would lead to the best thing that’s ever happened to me. I discovered how resilient I can be. I discovered that I am blessed and I have so much to be grateful for. All it took was one swift kick in the ass to discover it. Looking back now… I needed that pain to become who I am now. I needed that pain to appreciate what I have now. I stared that pain in the eye it doesn’t consume me anymore. Not even close. It doesn’t phase me…
Don’t get me wrong I do have my BpD moments when it shows it’s face but it no longer scares me. It’s been three months and I’ve only had two episodes. Self care and love is an amazing thing.
Words can’t describe how much I love the one who once was a complete stranger who sat across from me. He saved me by teaching me how to save myself. He knew I needed help when no one else did. I was headed towards emotional and likely physical death… he saw it when no one else could. He convinced me I was capable of doing the things I want. He convinced me I could live again. He revived me.
My guardian angel.
I have never been so happy.